What's it like to be free, I wonder? I've been try'na be free, I wander I've been trapped in these trees so long now What's it like to be free, I wonder? What's it like to be free, I wonder? I've been try'na be free, I wander I've been trapped in these trees so long now What's it like to be free, I wonder? I've got a family, they're back home in Tennessee As I walk through these trees I wonder, do they wonder bout me? I left them behind, in a dark state of mind years ago I thought I was lost but the owls They sang me back to hope What's it like to be free, I wonder? I've been try'na be free, I wander I've been trapped in these trees so long now What's it like to be free, I wonder? I search for home but it's unclear I'll use the stars to guide me there Oh, I've never been this scared But hope's a fire that burns my fear What's it like to be free, I wonder? I've been try'na be free, I wander I've been trapped in these trees so long now What's it like to be free, I wonder? There's no map for the halls of this fortress Starved for light in the leaves of this forest But there's a song that calls the chaos to order So maybe I can be free, I wonder?

Got a little bit of light But I don't know what it's good for Think I need to run and hide Hear the monsters draw to war Everybody is on fire Will-o'-wisps searching for answers Now we're knee-deep in the mire And the truth has grown obscure Come one and all To this messed up neon horror show Welcome home Cause you've got nowhere else to go If life's a dream, it's a nightmare Stay a while cause we all know That they like it dark out there Heaven forbid they see you glow So don't go outside I'm losing hope and that's okay, I don't believe them anyway They'd have me play a losing game Just sell my soul and get their name But I won't believe it Come one and all To this messed up neon horror show Welcome home Cause you've got nowhere else to go If life's a dream, it's a nightmare Stay a while cause we all know That they like it dark out there Heaven forbid they see you glow So don't go outside I've lost their trust but that's okay I don't believe them anyway My eyes are still alight Write my beliefs in neon sign and watch Them shrink into the fog Where all is equal, all is dark And shadows cling to tooth and claw Fleeing from light of neon souls Cause every glow's a weapon Come one and all To this messed up neon horror show Welcome home Cause you've got nowhere else to go If life's a dream, it's a nightmare Stay a while cause we all know That they like it dark out there Heaven forbid they see you glow So don't go outside

About this time of every year the shadow people come They lay down their nets before they appear Cause they know where we will run They don't need their knives They don't wield their spears They just turn us on our own With some hazy fog, and some well-placed mirrors They obscure what's right from wrong They have robbed us of ears to hear Every mourner's on their own The court seers warn the end is near They find deaf ears on the throne But I know there's coming one who sings And he'll turn our hearts from stone We denied the light right above our heads And we sought it on the ground When we lit the fires set in front of us Their light cast our shadows long All this earthbound light gives them room to hide Maybe all our fire's in vain But I see a star burning in the heights It could set this dark ablaze Hear the dissonance of the northern wind As it blows through empty pews Hear the shadow people usher in The final twilight of the moon But I know there's coming one who sings And he'll cause the dawn to bloom Maybe this isn't our fight Maybe we'll lose to the night But maybe we'd still better try Cause even the shadows can't hide what is right And even this darkness can't long hide the light

Looking for a song that can ease my mind and Hoping for a way to lose track of time And forget myself in beautiful pursuit There's a bit of heaven come down to earth Whenever I'm devoted to make things good I just wish that I could live inside that truth I could use a little dopamine Cause I ain't' feeling like I used to I've been staying up and losing sleep Cause there's gotta be something on the other side And I ain't gonna find it if I shut my eyes Starlight, low fire Long night, I'm tired And ready to awake at break of morn Tortured artist I'd trade it, heartbeat I'd rather my art Spring from wells of joy I could use a little dopamine Cause I ain't' feeling like I used to I've been staying up and losing sleep Cause there's gotta be something on the other side And I ain't gonna find it if I shut my eyes Maybe there's a reason and I'm only meant to find it when I'm through Let it be true Maybe there's a reason and I'll finally be at peace when it's all through Let it be soon I could use a little dopamine Cause I ain't feeling like I used to I've been staying up and losing sleep Cause I could feel better than I do right now Yeah I could be better than I am right now

Lost in darkness so afraid But a melody sounds far away I can't picture hope or speak the name Like Plato's shadows in the cave But then you found me there and brought me up to sunlight And I can't understand this weight of love In my life Look at me falling backwards, loosing balance Tranced, in love when I see your eyes Alive in sunlight, colored fire in amber depths of life I pray that I never lose you, hold on to you What I gift that I can't repay When I was lost by grace of God you came and lit the way Shorter nights and brighter days Your heart's a lantern in this haze I'll try to rightly sing your praise In self-forgetful turns of phrase And it's all up from here, from one love to another Circumambulating round this sacred fire Look at me falling backwards, loosing balance Tranced, in love when I see your eyes Alive in sunlight, colored fire in amber depths of life I pray that I never lose you, hold on to you What I gift that I can't repay When I was lost by grace of God you came and lit the way Look at me falling backwards, loosing balance Tranced, in love when I see your eyes Alive in sunlight, colored fire in amber depths of life I pray that I never lose you, hold on to you What I gift that I can't repay When I was lost by grace of God you came and lit the way

I'm pacing the floor again Trying to understand If I feel this guilt because I'm bad Or just cause I'm scared The path ahead scares me The alternative's deadly So why does this call to freedom Only leave me scared and running From good reason? Quick, call the ambulance, and get em here fast Cause I'm about to do something I'm gonna regret Oh, I know that I know I will But I don't know I will I'm starting to wake up I have some good days, now But I am still weighed down By the things I regret Write these words on my forehead That I may never forget That every shadowed night ends giving way To holy daybreak, I can make it Quick, call the ambulance, and get em here fast Cause I'm about to do something I'm gonna regret Oh, I know that I know I will But I don't know I will I've been hating myself; it leaves me asking if I could be both so broken And so made in an image Oh, I know that I know I am But I don't know I am Quick, call the ambulance, and get em here fast Cause I'm about to do something I'm gonna regret Oh, I know that I know I will But I don't know I will I've been hearing of hope like a song on the breeze Called in notes carried off from a faraway king And I know that He knows I bleed Cause He bleeds here with me O Lord, what you say, well I do believe So God, help my unbelief Hold on, think twice before you shoot to kill Cause there's some blood in these veins And it's worth pumping still Hold on, think twice before you write me off Cause there's some life in these bones It's undeniable

Let's just skip over everything that happened till now Cause I need to get straight to the point I'm bruised and I'm roadworn Losing grip on my religion But You're still the reason for me You're God of the in-betweens I think I'm thinking too much Reading all the wrong books Cause these doubts pile high in the night Hear the floorboards wrestle beneath my Wrestling heart, mind, and soul, how they fight But maybe I'm meant for these drawn-out nights Where I doubt everything I can stand Cause these chinks in my armor are refracting Your light And revealing the colors within If I can't hold fast, well it's you that does the holding It's not me that holds you, that's reversed So, I'll trust that when doubts start assailing the walls That they'll hold like they have from the first So, I'll stare down Nietzsche and take every blow After all, didn't you do the same? And may my failures of mind Be a chance for the light Of your wisdom to glory your name May these questions be worship Like Jacob of old As I wrestle with You through the night If he who wrestles with God is the one God has chosen Then these doubts leave no doubt in my mind

Keep awake your tired eyes and Don't believe the lullabies That tell you that it's time to go Cause life can only be survived With one foot planted on the ground And another in the realm of souls Maybe it's a punishment Or maybe it's the only way A serpent in the wilderness In darkest night I must obey Try to steal the grail you seek Through holy plants or hidden dreams And find you've only found the cave The torch you need to light the way Is only lit through striking flint Of self-denial every day Maybe it's a punishment Or maybe it's the only way A serpent in the wilderness In darkest night I must obey The walls slowly present themselves The hedges that delineate The garden in this wild maze The goal lies not beyond the trees But in living life here properly Balanced between growth and decay And I'll sway with the branches and Run along the rivers Cause dreams are ever dangerous And I'm a thrill seeker I'll run into the shadows Get lost in the forest Cause woods are for the spirits And I'm a clairvoyant I'll leap into the thicket Get bruised in the nettles Cause when I start bleeding I know he'll pick my head up This forest is a labyrinth My God drew all the maps and I know I know nothing But He'll teach me his paths And I'll sway with the branches and Run along the rivers Cause dreams are ever dangerous And I'm a thrill seeker I'll run into the shadows Get lost in the forest Cause woods are for the spirits And I'm a clairvoyant I'll leap into the thicket Get bruised in the nettles Cause when I start bleeding I know he'll pick my head up This forest is a labyrinth My God drew all the maps and I know I know nothing But He'll teach me his paths Maybe it's a punishment Or maybe it's the only way A serpent in the wilderness In darkest night I must obey

Maybe there's a reason That we've fallen to these depths If I treat it like it's me then Well, at least we stand a chance I can feel my heart at war Who I am; who I could be The split of bad and good Is the line that runs between My God sings out a love song To this heart so drawn to hell He calls for reformation So I'll speak the ancient spell Give me a sword, I'll make war on myself These eyes open wide They see straight down to hell That dragon is lurking And it's in the heart of every man The answer is waiting, it's just gotta be said To live like your life's Worth the death that's ahead The spirit is willing And it's in the heart of every man The king and all his monsters Are all beating down my home But I'm much less scared of them than All the demons in my soul They've given me these eyes So, I'll face what's to be seen And they've blessed me with these ears So, I'll hear the prophet's sing The widows and the orphans Are all fending for themselves If we insist on making war then Make it on these feats of hell Give me a sword and I'll do it myself These eyes open wide They see straight down to hell That dragon is lurking And it's in the heart of every man The answer is waiting, it's just gotta be said To live like your life's Worth the death that's ahead The spirit is willing And it's in the heart of every man Soon every knee's gonna crash to the floor We'll finally see What we've been fighting for The battle is ending And the sword is held by He who was before That fiery serpent's gonna try to bow out I'll give up my sword Bow my head to the ground Cause I'm just a soldier And here comes the one I've been fighting for

And I'm tired So what's the point? Then why this fire That points me north? And it's so strange To comprehend But maybe there's A promised land And I'm tired So what's the point? Then why this fire That points me north? And it's so strange To comprehend But maybe there's A promised land Through winter snow And fresh spring rain Like evergreens I bear this pain But there's a hope Beyond this shame It's on a tree It's in a name

What then is this that flesh and soul Once warring now seek peace? What then is this that bloodied wolves Find pasture with the sheep? Maybe it's alchemy, redeemed Or maybe it's better than we dreamed Maybe the stone's not what we seek Maybe this Christ is who we need We searched the depths of the oldest tomes And came away distressed "In sterquiliniis invenitur" We didn't know it yet Maybe it's alchemy, redeemed Or maybe it's better than we dreamed Maybe the stone's not what we seek Maybe this Christ is who we need The mud brought sight to tired eyes We reached the darkest grove The steps were ours, the grace was Christ's He called us back to home Maybe it's alchemy, redeemed Or maybe it's better than we dreamed Maybe the stone's not what we seek Maybe this Christ is who we need Oh, I can feel it in my bones Oh, he's right here in all these tomes The one we're searching for The Logos, known by name I searched through maps and dusty tomes You took my head and held me close Now I know what I'd never known By grace so undeserved I was a lost boy on my own You were the father that led me home This freedom's all I want to know By grace, so undeserved

Your heart brought art onto This canvas that I call myself Like twenty years of poetry Condensed into a spell You called forth color From the shadows that enshroud my heart And showed me how to wander From the mind that's been my cell So maybe I've got reason But you've given me purpose You sing the kinda meaning I've been missing, leave me wordless Stellar charts won't direct my heart Replace the maps with the beaming stars You woke me up You light the way like a morning star An echo back from Arcadia You give me hope You're my sign How beautiful this life could be With constellation eyes You remind me that it's good to be You painted all the windows So that I could finally see Like the stars, so far apart But joined together to form Hercules You call and I respond And make an art of gravity So I could try to reason But I think I'd miss the purpose This love uncovered meaning I can feel it and it's perfect Stellar charts won't direct my heart Replace the maps with the beaming stars You woke me up You light the way like a morning star An echo back from Arcadia You give me hope You're my sign How beautiful this life could be When I am at my weakest, oh you fill me with purpose I wavered to let hope in, then you gave me an excuse I got a lot of reasons that I've been hurting But now I've got a reason to hope When I am at my weakest, oh you fill me with purpose I wavered to let hope in, then you gave me an excuse I got a lot of reasons that I've been hurting But now I've got a reason to hope